Friend of mine told me he had gotten engaged; bout time! Course then I had a flashback to my run in with the alter. It went by so fast that any logical thoughts didn't have a place. Afterward realized I was to young, hadn't experianced life, an I was going to settle down with one person for the rest of my life. In my book, at the time, it was a bad idea and possibly the worst mistake in my life. Now I realize it was, shouldn't have ran...
I don't ALWAYS have a betterhalf, usually I am single ^_^ Mostly because I got tired of all the BS that goes along with havin a bf. Either I stick myself with a complete lier or a pathetic whop that follows me around like a little lost puppy dog. Not to mention they all seem to come with a damn ring in their pocket! Which is why I decided not to do the bf thing for a while.
Yet I keep lookin for someone to share my life with; why?! Don't know if it's cause I want to take a step twoard my 'family' goal. Or if it's cause I miss having someone that actually listens and/or might care bout my incoharent babble. Tho if I spot someone that I fancy, it just becomes a internal secret. If I get questioned, I deny. Just can't trust people anymore. If I do tho, I know their not going to be round forever; so what's the point? Just let them walk away now and not have to deal with it later...Maybe my shrink was right an I am emotionally unstable.
Excess Baggage - "Because I always see the potential of failure."
I don't ALWAYS have a betterhalf, usually I am single ^_^ Mostly because I got tired of all the BS that goes along with havin a bf. Either I stick myself with a complete lier or a pathetic whop that follows me around like a little lost puppy dog. Not to mention they all seem to come with a damn ring in their pocket! Which is why I decided not to do the bf thing for a while.
Yet I keep lookin for someone to share my life with; why?! Don't know if it's cause I want to take a step twoard my 'family' goal. Or if it's cause I miss having someone that actually listens and/or might care bout my incoharent babble. Tho if I spot someone that I fancy, it just becomes a internal secret. If I get questioned, I deny. Just can't trust people anymore. If I do tho, I know their not going to be round forever; so what's the point? Just let them walk away now and not have to deal with it later...Maybe my shrink was right an I am emotionally unstable.
Excess Baggage - "Because I always see the potential of failure."
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