Having kids is another question…If I don’t trust anyone, that won’t even become a possibility. With all the diseases that are going around in this little messed up planet; how do I know what he has? Not many will tell others right off the bat that they have an illness, because many are afraid of rejection. Even if the tests come back with a result of NO diseases, it doesn’t mean they don’t have them. It could be that it just hasn’t had a chance to show up yet or it’s in the early stages. With that said, “Fuck, I could have something!” So, now I’m unknowingly passing something on to whoever I hook up with.
I always wanted kids, but I can’t trust anyone with them. Not as the simple factor that they will fall down, get the chicken pox and be hospitalized. I have a fear of their father, my husband, molesting/beating them. I know I can’t protect my child from some experiences; they need them during rearing to be ‘normal’ in the sense of intellect, emotion, and creativity. But that is not something I ever want near my kid…Even though now a days it is normal for someone to say, so and so molested/raped me. I don’t think I know one person who hasn’t been raped or molested at one point in their lives. I myself am in that category…Don’t want to see it happen to my kid…Guess that’s why my mother didn’t see it and chose to ignore the possibility of her husband being able to do such a thing. Yet she was mad at her mother when she didn’t believe her….
Being one person alone in this world is horrible enough…I don’t know if I really am willing to bring a child into this world…So much you have to protect them from. So many ways they can get hurt while growing up…Not just physically either.
Watching them fall down, get turned down by someone they like, breaking up with their partner, having children, loosing them…Even though they are a bit harsh, it’s normal stuff you get to witness and help them through…Drugs, gangs, cults, depression, corruption, peer pressure…That is all a guess. No matter what you do, if you truly want to make sure you can see your kid in once piece with a family of his or her own *gets a plastic bubble* Yah…That should do it!
Sometimes, I think I am just way to realistic for my own good…Which shoves my realism to a paranoid level.
I always wanted kids, but I can’t trust anyone with them. Not as the simple factor that they will fall down, get the chicken pox and be hospitalized. I have a fear of their father, my husband, molesting/beating them. I know I can’t protect my child from some experiences; they need them during rearing to be ‘normal’ in the sense of intellect, emotion, and creativity. But that is not something I ever want near my kid…Even though now a days it is normal for someone to say, so and so molested/raped me. I don’t think I know one person who hasn’t been raped or molested at one point in their lives. I myself am in that category…Don’t want to see it happen to my kid…Guess that’s why my mother didn’t see it and chose to ignore the possibility of her husband being able to do such a thing. Yet she was mad at her mother when she didn’t believe her….
Being one person alone in this world is horrible enough…I don’t know if I really am willing to bring a child into this world…So much you have to protect them from. So many ways they can get hurt while growing up…Not just physically either.
Watching them fall down, get turned down by someone they like, breaking up with their partner, having children, loosing them…Even though they are a bit harsh, it’s normal stuff you get to witness and help them through…Drugs, gangs, cults, depression, corruption, peer pressure…That is all a guess. No matter what you do, if you truly want to make sure you can see your kid in once piece with a family of his or her own *gets a plastic bubble* Yah…That should do it!
Sometimes, I think I am just way to realistic for my own good…Which shoves my realism to a paranoid level.
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